Sunday, November 30, 2008

A Man Amongst Friends

So I thought that I’d jump on the 10-bad-things-and-10-good-things-to-say-to-people bandwagon. But as I tried to write them I found out that I really had nothing bad to say. We all have our faults and I can’t really sit here and pick at them because I know I have so many. I know some of you didn’t like me at first, I know you didn’t want me interrupting your circle of friends, but now, I think, now you have had a chance to see the real me, or at least as much as I can stand to share. I think that every single person that will read this knows that I like them, that I’m almost glad to have moved just to meet some of the people I have. If you’re reading this and thinking “Is he talking about me?” the answer is yes.

 

Even as I tried to write the nice things I couldn’t because I think things lose meaning if they have to be written to be understood. I guess what I’ve been trying to get at is this: I don’t care if occasionally you annoy me or say something bad about me, it’s enough for me to know that I’d rather put up with all of your little faults, than to be where I was 5 months ago. In other words, thank you all for being you, for better or for worse, thank you.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

The Move

Hair

 

So this is farewell

I say good bye to you

I bid you all ado

I hope to see you sometime soon

 

I’m still in love with you

I don’t know what to do

I’m going somewhere new

Gonna be so far from you

 

I don’t want to say good-bye

Don’t want anyone to cry

Just look you in the eye

And heave a heavy sigh

 

There’s nothing more to say

But I’ll be back again one day

And I’ll meet you by the bay

And if we’re lucky I’ll stay

Same drill people, Critique it, PLEASE! Also, this one isn't about love of a person, but of a place. It sounds odd, but i wrote this for San Diego. I LOVE YOU BABY!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Alarm Clock

 

God I hate this stupid thing

Every time I hear it freaking ring

Always waking me up

Even if I don’t want to

Always waking me up

I think I’ll hit it with my shoe

 

I swear it beeps just to piss me off

Always going off at 6 o’ clock

I’d really like to cut its cord

Or run it over with my Ford

I’ll throw it out the window

God you do not even know

 

I really love waking up

To the song the birds sing

I really hate waking up

To the sound of that freaking ring

 

And if I had my way

I’d make them all go away

All these damn alarm clocks

SCREW ‘EM ALL!

 

So, yeah, that’s pretty much what goes through my head every single morning, so I thought why not make it a song? Also this is the clean version, the original one o wrote down was filled with unneeded cussing, but if you want to know what it is like with the cussing, just replace all the “freaking”’s and the final screw with the F-Bomb.

 

Also, I’m not a big fan of the ending so any suggestions would be nice. And feel free to critique the song, creative input is always welcome.

Monday, November 24, 2008

First Finished Song

But not really, I would really appreciate any criticism from anyone who reads this. So here it is and I hope you enjoy it.

Uncertainty

I can’t tell you how I’m feeling

‘Cause I don’t really know myself

I can’t tell you how I’m feeling

But I sure could use your help

 

I think I might be in love

But that would be a first

Could you give me some of your love?

For that is what I thirst

 

I’ve just been walkin’ ‘round town

With these thoughts stuck in my head

Feelin’ up and feelin’ down

Just going where I’m led

 

Maybe with you there to help me

I could lead a normal life

And if you were to love me

It wouldn’t be filled with so much strife

 

And when you need me to be there

You know I always will

Maybe as a shoulder to cry on

Or who would you have me kill?

 

My road is just so unclear

And now I have to go

I would have nothing to fear

But there are so many unknowns

 

Even with all this uncertainty

There’s one thing that I know

I’d stay with you for eternity

That’s all you really need to know

Saturday, November 22, 2008

ABC Story Time

For those of you who are not familiar with ABC stories here’s a brief explanation: It is a 26 sentence story in which each sentence begins with a letter of the alphabet starting with A and progressing to Z.

 

            As I walked towards the building I looked for her and there she was waiting for me. Beautiful, intelligent, funny, and care-free, she had it all. Carefully I approached her; afraid, as always, that I’d make a fool out of myself. “Damn near thought you wouldn’t show!” she exclaimed. Even my death wouldn’t keep me from being there for her, but there’s no need for her to know that, not yet anyway. “Fought traffic all the way here, sorry.” I said with a lopsided grin. Gallantly I took her arm in mine and led her into the restaurant. Half way through the meal we forgot all about food we were so deep in conversation. Indeed, just being in her presence, talking to her, making her laugh was enough to sustain me for eternity. Just as the clock hit nine we walked out the door into the frigid night air. “Keep warm.” I said as I handed her my jacket while we walked down the street. “Let me ask you something.” she whispered softly. Man she looked so cute wrapped up in my coat, her large eyes searching my face, asking of me only the truth. “Not a problem,” I told her with a reassuring smile, “you’re always free to ask me anything.” “Of everything you know about me, what do you like the best?” she asked. “Perhaps it’s my hair, or eyes, or something…” she offered when I hesitated. “Quite the opposite” I said. Revealing everything I told her this. “Sometimes, when you think no one’s looking, you smile to yourself at some private joke. Then there’s your laugh; just hearing it makes me feel enlivened and intoxicated by….you!” Usually one smiles when they receive a compliment; she started crying. Valor is not my forte, but none the less I asked why she was crying. “Well, it’s ‘cause you’re different from every other guy I’ve ever gone out with; I mean you always make me feel so damn good about myself and it’s overwhelmingly wonderful and valuable to me.” Xanax couldn’t cure what was going on inside me. “You know, I think I might love you…” she let this last thought trail off. Zoning out at that moment probably wasn’t the smartest thing I’ve ever done.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Because everyone needs more 
Monty Python in their lives,
not to mention spam.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The Best Day of My Life

 

Honestly I did not think the best day of my life, so far, I must add, would take place in Show Low, Arizona, but it did. It was Saturday November 15, 2008. Now Aca-Dec-ers will recognize this as the day of the Round Valley skirmish. Drama kids will recognize this as closing night of The Outsiders. For those of us who are both, we will fondly remember this day as a really frickin’ long one. From waking up at 4:30 AM Saturday to finally going to bed at 2:00 AM Sunday, the day was, needless to say, extensively long.

 

I’ll start my story at the most logical place, the beginning. In the beginning there was little light and little time to get ready. Ben pulled into my driveway just as I was finishing piecing together my “business attire”. Black shirt, black pants, black shoes, Cadillac. Well, no Cadillac, but the rest applies, with the addition of a silver tie. I thought I looked rather snazzy. We left my house listening to Nirvana’s MTV Unplugged album and headed for Cassidi’s. We reached the sweet, warm relief of her fireplace and waited for her to come down. As we waited we marveled at the mansion she called a house and admired the art that adorned the living area.

 

Next, Ben hit the bank and we headed for Kim’s house. We picked her up quickly and headed for school, where we found a bus waiting for us. As I said then, “I feel like royalty; having an entire bus waiting for us.”

 

And so the bus ride began. It wasn’t a very long one, but angst and worry about the competition stretched it out.  I tried to play it as cool as possible, but as it was my first competition, I was actually more nervous than I let on.

 

So, Competition; I did rather badly over all, not having touched Bless Me Ultima, or Music or Art, I did poorly on those tests. Econ went alright, so did Social Science. My essay did okay too. Getting second in Varsity Super Quiz was a bit of a surprise, I did well, but I didn’t think I’d medal. Then Math; as many of you know that one really pissed me off. We started the test about ten minutes before we had to go do Speech and Interview. Because everyone else didn’t even bother to try on the test I was the only one who complained afterwards, but who could blame me!?! I thought math would be my one medal! As my speech says, there’s no point to dwell upon the past, so I’ll stop complaining. Speaking of Speech and Interview for that matter, Impromptu went well for me, not so much the Prepared. I thought I did okay on interview, but did worse than expected.

 

Skipping over our trip to Safeway for lunch, that brings us to Super Quiz. I cannot express how proud and ecstatic I felt after Super Quiz. Our team was amazing and I could not have been happier to be apart of it. We started off strong by nailing our first five questions, yes I know you’ll all think that I’m patting my self on the back, but really my initial success was just the launch off point for the entire team to do well. Tying for second with St. Johns was a superb achievement.

 

I’d like to officially congratulate everyone who medaled at skirmish and officially announce my loathing of Blue Ridge for taking 75% of the awards. Kayla thinks that means I have school spirit; really I just have my pride. And Ben, the look on your face when you got third in Art was priceless.

 

The excitement during the bus ride home was tangible, though as we neared town the mental drain started to take its toll. I think we had like an hour to kill before call for closing night, and as usual I hung out with Ben and Kim, my best friends here in Show Low. Then it was time for the last performance of one of the worst plays I’ve ever worked on, as an experience I mean, not quality wise. Strike was…interesting. As usual the vast majority of the cast stood around doing nothing and ended up leaving early. Eventually Ben, Kim and I left for the cast party at Cassidi’s. When we got there I wandered around talking to the few people I liked, claiming ownership of Kyle’s left nipple, and signing the shirts. That’s about the time Kara and I started talking. I had the feeling that we had become friends somewhere during that night, more specifically during that night’s performance. I had kept her laughing all night, at one point she was on the floor because she was laughing so hard. 


Anyway, we were talking when Cassidi mention something about upstairs and almost everyone head up there. There was talk about a flirting game, it sounded rather childish to me, so eventually Kim brought me back downstairs to enjoy some Roque Delight. That was pretty awesome and I never thought one could use Mr. Willard's name and the word “delight” in the same sentence and not be sarcastic, but by George I was wrong. A little time later we had to go; damn Ben’s dad. That’s when the day finished in a high note. 


As I turned to leave I took one last glimpse over my shoulder and noticed the girl that I had developed a rather soft spot for over the past couple of weeks beckoning me over with her forefinger. We exchanged some brief words, none of which held any importance to me; I was lost in her eyes. Then she startled me. She wrapped her arms around me tightly and we embraced. The moment stretched into eternity in my mind. All thought was erased. For all I cared it could have been just me and her in each others arms forever. We let each other go. Thought and motor functions returned to me and I left.

 

It may or may not have meant anything to her, but to this wounded soul, it meant that I was still capable of having a normal relationship with a girl; that I don’t always fuck it up somehow or someway. She may have just been being nice to me, but the fact that within a few weeks we’d gone from brief acquaintances to friends, a friend that she feels comfortable enough to show even the lowest manner of intimacy with, tells me that I’m doing something right.

 

If you knew me better, any of you, you might understand why this is such a big deal for me. Maybe I’ll tell that story another time, but for now, I’ll just enjoy the feeling of not being a fuck-up.

I looked at my kingdom

I was finally there

To sit on my throne as the Prince of Bel Air

Monday, November 17, 2008

There You Go Kim

Threes Tag


What are the last three things you purchased?

Food

Food

Food

(I sense a trend)

 

What are the last three songs you downloaded??

Ummm probably something by Daft Punk or something

 

What are the last three places you visited??

Round Valley

Show Low

San Diego

 

What are your three favorite movies??

Monty Python and the Holy Grail

V for Vendetta

Star Wars Episode VI

 

Right now I feel like??

A sloth

Your mom when I’m done with her

A churro

 

What are your three favorite possessions??

My guitar

My Computer

My iPod

 

What three things can you not live without??

My guitar

My Computer

My iPod

 

What would be your three wishes??

For her to like me back (no not who you may think)

Never to have to worry about money

For my mom’s dream to come true

 

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What three things haven’t you done yet??

Anything I really want to

(Trust me that’s more than 3)

 

What are your three favorite dishes??

Steak! Mmmm Steak!

Graham Crackers and Milk

Mexican food

 

Which three celebrities would you most like to hang out with??

I hate the deification of celebrities

 

Name three things that freak you out??

Spiders

The lack of intelligence I see everywhere

The fact that our country is run by those people

 

Name three unusual things you are good at.??

Nothing I’m good at is unusual

Unique is extinct

Which three things are you coveting??

Her

What my two new friends share

A new Fender Stratocaster in the Sun Burnt color

Tag three bloggers to do it!??

I don’t know anyone so just take it as an open invitation

to anyone who wants to do this, it’s actually pretty fun

In Response

I’m sure you don’t want me to know, but I’m nosy and curious, and I couldn’t help but compile a list of lines that I think might apply to me from you blog entry. If you don’t want to tell me if I’m correct that’s fine, but even if you could tell me one of these is right, that I guessed right, I would appreciate it. No, I don’t expect you to tell me, but none the less I had to do this. It was really more for me. A self reflection and an insight into what people might think about me, what I might be able to improve on.

 

“I HATE YOU. SO MUCH.

This likely applies to me; I hear that come out of your mouth a lot, often directed toward me.

 

“You are so cool, but I still kind of can't really stand you. I still feel like everything you say is about the same thing

Umm maybe me, but I don’t say enough to repeat my self a lot, unless it’s a quote.

 

 “You think you're so perfect and you're better than everyone, but guess who's her favorite student?? Guess who has the higher grade??? Me. ME! =P

Very likely me, I know I’m arrogant, a point you make often; not sure which class it’s talking about, maybe math and AcaDec?

 

“I can never decide if I like you or not. I do, then I don't. Am I too picky, or do you change personalities every few hours?

Again possibly me, but I get the feeling its not because though were bicker and fight on the outside and I make fun of you a lot, I still think you are a awesome person and I’m only having a little fun, I really hope you realize that.

 

“You're great, but I know you're still keeping something from us, and I wish you would just be honest, who would it hurt?

This is the one I really think you mean to say to me. The clues include the use of the word “we” singling me out against a common group like everyone at Show Low, or more likely, you and your BF.

iSuck

So that whole quote a day thing kinda epic failed seeing as my last post was a month ago....
But I feel like Blogging again and i have a Work in Progress that I'll probably post in a day or two. More likely two because I gotta clean my room tomorrow.

Update on Hair By Hair Beauty Supply and Salon: My mom really likes this spot in the shopping mall with subway and Family Dollar in it. And for those who don't know, My parents are working on setting my mom up with her own business because she is very unhappy a Wal-Mart. She has decided to name it Hair By Hair Beauty Supply and Salon.

That's all for now, I'll post again soon because I'm dying to unveil this Blog soon and would like to start out with some cool stuff.