This is killing me

So, I've been home for a little more than two hours at this point, and i still don't know diddley shit.

My mom has been at the hospital all day, I've been worrried sick all day. You know, in third hour I thought to myself "my mom is probably under the knife right now" and I actually prayed.

I don't believe in God, but my mom does. I just kept thinking, "God, my mom has had faith in you her entire life, return the favor, just this once, for her, not for me, I deserve nothing, but she deserves to be safe, so please just look after her today."

So, two hours home, and still no phone call from my Dad. No news one way or another.

This is killing me.


***** an hour after I wrote this I finally found my mom's cell number, only to realize the phones are out at my house.